Of Greener Grass and Escapades

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

ok i've finally decided tt i want the ipod instead. i kinda feel i dont relli need the hp as much (honestly i don't NEED either =S) but oh well... so like rite now i dun relli noe if i shud ask my dad if he'll get me the ipod. i am almost 99% sure that he would jus yell at me as usual and scowl for the next few days but i noe that there's tt elusive 1% that he could possibly get it for me and i would just hate to actually save up n spend all that cash on it only to find out that he was actually willing to get it for me all along. haiz. i'm such a brat. i want it asap. i cant imagine myself slogging thru all the prelims while thinking abt it. i'm such a brat. whenever i want something i feel the need to get it immediately. i'm such a brat. but i cant help it.
sigh... why like tt... den tdy i study until relli gona go crazy man. rushed thru the 2 phy papers den when i finished a chem mcq (ri paper. tough!) i relli felt that i could hardly squeeze anything else into my head. i'm not gona get my 8 points or less. i'm gona go jjc for my first 3 months. i'm not gona get my 8 points or less. i'm so gona be the only one in class hu fucks up prelims n o lvls. i'm not gona get my 8 points or less. i duno wat's gona become of me.

sNooZe.
8:34 PM

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

oh no i'm suffering from a crisis now. i don't noe whethe i shud save up for a 15GB ipod or a hot samsung sgh e700a phone. i noe de latter is kinda old but its so hot!!! n de funny thing is tt i keep dreaming abt it. freak. but its like 700 bucks. and den the ipod looks so attractive at abt 450 bucks but the battery is only wat... 12h? tt totally puts me off man... haiz... how? dilemma. now i've saved up abt 300 bucks. gimme another month or so n i shud have enough to get that elusive ipod... hmmmmm.... how? oh no dis is bad. but i want the phone so badly too its too damn hot. shucks man dis sucks. oh n yea my prelims ARE in abt 5 days time and yes i'm still thinking abt all this shit. n den de ipod i duno whether shud wait till xmas when they got gd deals... but i'm a fucking brat n i want everything asap. haiz. den i went to the apple store after eating at the big 'o' [food quite nice btw] at borders there den i saw the ipod soooo hoottt.... haiz. but i noe my parents wud nvr get it for me. its like after my laptop they feel the need to deprive me of everything else. oh well, looks like i gota go thru the save > buy > get scolded cycle. geez. tough life tough life. i cant see how ppl have so much patience to save up slowly... slowly.... slowly n den buy something. its jus so... hard! i think if i waited till xmas i'll probably see something else n start splurging... shiet.... den come xmas i'll so regret cos everything's goa be so much cheaper. ok i think that's abt enough of self-pity for tdy...

sNooZe.
9:46 PM

thx everyone for ur well wishes n prezzies! u've made dis day a more memorable one for me =)

sNooZe.
9:33 PM

Monday, September 06, 2004

Just removed the braces on my top row of teeth... feels weird... slippery... smooth. haha. i didn't relli feel tt excited abt removing it at first but now tt its gone i can't wait to get rid of those on my bottom row too.
reformatted my comp 2 daes ago. how nice using a comp tt feels so brand new. it was rather troublesome actually. cos i downloaded xp prof off morpheus. den when i brunt it into a disk i couldn't boot it at startup. so i resorted to using windows 98 to reformat my comp first and install it then used xp to upgrade... tedious.
and no matter how some ppl encourage me to have confidence tt i can do well, i relli relli cant seem to find it in me to picture myself doing well. its like there are just so many things happening like some ppl sae its the last yr most schs are taking o lvl so mebbe they'll make it harder, den ppl sae its e dragon yr so comp very stiff... den all e teachers are going on n on abt how the prelim papers are gona be killers.... wtf man n den aft tt they tell us "oh u guys should not be so stressed, can do well one" like, fuck man.
how how how. prelims are almost here n i've hardly touched rev. keep doing all those mounds of papers the teachers pushed into our hands. its relli sick man. i avg abt 2 papers in one aft n i still can hardly see the end of it. den e cheong said must spend 3 solid hours for reading text everyday which, though very ideal, is hardly feasible.
i keep tihnking like, ok, if i do well for my prelims den i would noe i can do it and i won't feel so stressed, go prelims! den... wat if i dun do well for my prelims? den where will i be in the 1st 3 months nxt yr? haiz... wat if man wat if....

sNooZe.
9:28 PM