Of Greener Grass and Escapades

Sunday, September 26, 2004

ok recently i have been thinking quite alot abt religion. being born a catholic and baptised at birth, i've never relli had any occasion to understand and choose a faith which i may personally feel is more suited to my own needs. that may or may not be a bad thing since i probably won't noe or bother to make a suitable choice anywae but either way its too late. i'm stuck with my faith and i just have to try and accept it. all my life i cant relli say i've ever been relli close to god or anything. i prayed when i remembered n i went to church every sunday but i kind of ended there. this year however, things started to go quite off course in my life (imo) n i have since drifted even further from god. it was only until yesterday when baba came n toked to me more abt god tt i tried to revert back n perhaps improve on my religion. tho seemingly whimsical, baba managed to convince me n i would now like to share wat i think abt religion. i hope u wud excuse me since some parts might seem like blasphemy but oh well... okay, so basically i believe religion is sort of a psychological club where u develop a relationship with god, kind of like a gym to build up ur body. god may or may not exist but the main thing abt religion is u learn to believe he exists, kind of like how u havent actually seen another galaxy but u believe its there. it may not exist but the main thing is that u believe it does. so i kind of think all religions have the same aim, be it buddhism, hinduism, christianity or wat not, it was all established with the goal of imparting the belief and knowledge of god to other, much like a t-shirt, a t-shirt is bascially something u wear with the purpose of clothing urself but there are so many diff sizes, u gota choose the one tt fits comfortably and is not too large or small n the same goes of religion, there are so many types but the main thing is tt u choose the one tt suits u best. so wat exactly is the purpose of believing in god? it's to achieve happiness. oft times u hear ppl toking abt how u may be materially rich but spiritually poor and it kind of means u have noe fulfillment in life. if u got rich cos u cheated n conned ur way to the top den u probably wont feel any sense of well-being at all. on the other hand, if ur poor but u believe u have been a good person n tt god will bring u to heaven for tt den wouldn't u be happy? unafraid of the afterlife cos u believe god will be there to guide u? also if u believe tt god has a greater plan for u den everytime u fail won't u noe n trust tt its god's work cos u noe something good will come out of it and still be happy? take for example a religious family tt's well to do, one day the dad dies and all of a sudden there's noone for the kids to love, but if they believe that god and heaven exsists den they can set their mind at rest that their dad has gone to a better place to live in and they can go on and lead happy lives? THAT is exactly wat religion is all about. i guess its altogether possible tt u can live ur entire life without any belief in a higher power but when u grow old and are abt to die any time n leave ur possesions behind might u not look ahead and hope tt the afterlife might be something more than emptiness? where it might be a place or luxury where u can look after ur loved ones from above or something? i cant claim to have very much faith and i'm hell definitely not preaching but i guess i'm now trying to get myself more into a deeper relationship with god n all ni i'm jus trying to share my thought with all u guys. feel free to ask me any questions abt this, i believe tt questioning ur faith is the only way to strengthen it and i am stuggling like crazy with my faith now so yep.

sNooZe.
9:03 PM