Of Greener Grass and Escapades

Sunday, August 29, 2004

I don't noe wat's happening nowadaes man. its like i'm studying 10 times more than wat i was before the common tests and yet i feel like my standard is hardly improving. i did a whole stack of past year papers over the weekend and now i can hardly feel like i've done anything. its like last time even if i just finish 1 paper i would be like "WHOOHOO!!!". i completed about 7 over the weekend and i don't feel and sense of accomplishment at all... sian ah... carry on like tt how?! i sooooooo wana go hc....... sigh...... i jus keep thinking of how it wud be so cool to go hc n join the wushu team there..... ahhhh....... but like tt how??? oh no.... cham liao la.... must get 8 for prelims!!!! please please please....... geez..... the weird thing is even tho i've completed all my hw, i relli feel like i haven't done any of it such tt i'm worrying about how i'm gona go sch without doing my hw tmr like wat i wud normally have been be thinking abt during my slackier days. haiz this is all so weird. also on one hand i wwant the prelims to be fucking over so i can whether my studying is bearing any fruits at all and on the other hand i don't want it to come at all cos i totally got not enough time to study. walao i've been thinking so much abt wat's gona happen to me if i don't get to go hc.... so much so tt it relli fucking scares me. ah shit. and i kinda have this feeling brooding inside me tt since i wana go hc so badly, something will probably go wrong n then i won't be able to get in in the end. shit. i hate this. please..... when will it end???

sNooZe.
9:10 PM